Floral Chic Outfit

      As I learned more about being an adult, I realized that it is never an easy route to go. I believe that forgetting the unpleasant aspects of the past is more difficult than remembering the positive aspects. I used to blame myself for having a relapse with that recollection and felt so horrible. Those things lingered for so long that I became trapped in a web of untangled emotions. It had become so severe, but I still had a glimmer of hope. That it will pass, truly pass, and I will forget about it forever.

      The truth is that I will never forget it. No matter how much praying or inner work I did, I couldn't forget it. It's still there, like a fragment of broken glass, waiting to cut. Until I give in to those feelings, understanding when it will arrive and depart. I simply stand there and experience it without feeling guilty or awful. I began to forgive myself for all of the things that had gone wrong. Those approach has become my salvation. 

      I used to keep everything off limits, deny everything, and store everything away in the back of my mind. But then it became like a ticking time bomb, ready to blow up when something triggered it. I'm proud of myself now because I've learned to manage my feelings and emotions better than before. Being friends with your trauma is the best approach to deal with it, because you will know when it will surface and will be prepared.

     I'm wearing a trendy minty cut out top from Auriech Clothing, and paired it with a lilac floral skirt. I think this top could be paired with a women fashion pant. I accessories it with a beads bracelet and earrings from my line Baddie Beaddy. 

       I could now glance into the present with ease. I am really grateful for all of my life experiences; they have taught me valuable lessons and have prepared me for the bright future ahead of me. My 29-year-old can now smile despite all of her previous experiences, and that is all that matters. Whatever happened, I'm sure I'll be fine at the end of it. I'm stronger than I thought I was.

      To everyone that still have nightmares every night and day, those bad traumas that still haunting, I know how it feels too. If I can be okay, you will be as well. You are not alone, and you should not feel that way. Knowing that it was a hard lesson, you have done exceptionally well up to this point. I wish you the best of luck in the future.